The benefit of the doubt !

Ok Ok i know that what I've being writing is kind of annoying n really boring and pointless for some people. I look like a stupid frustrated with this world n this society touching in a pointless subject that maybe will never take me anywhere. Whatever! I dont even know if someone will one of this or those days read this. Its not the kind of stuff people search in blogs anyway.

But i dont want people to have this image of me... in fact i dont want people to have any image of me. Or maybe i do, and what i call image can be different of what u do.

So... i was looking around and seems that the popular blogs are the ones that are unusual in some way, like made all in HQ, have lots of pics, links for downloads and other helpfully stuff. They are made for the people. Not for the owner.

It doesn't really matters...

Hopefully someone will read my fuckin blog cuz even im trying to put in my mind that what im writing is just for me i do want people to tell what they think. Im sorry!Im human. Humans are like this.

Life sweaty lie

Oh here i go again! Finally alone in here. Stupid job. Now i never told u what happened in Malahide did i? Yeah i dont think so...
Know im doing now? Training my psycologyc skills in msn. Thats something i really like to do. Oh ill put here what this ''cobaia'' finish to say :

v€ says:
vc é mt madura ( u r so mature )
v€ says:
alguem com 17 anos não deve pensar assim ( someone with 17 yrs shouldnt thk like this )

So tell me please... whats the point of this? I really cant see any. I dont think people from a determinate age 'should' think in a certainly way.
Thats crazy. Those standarts, like old peoople should do this, married people should do this, womans should do this are not more than bullshit for me...
Thats what they do to keep the society controlled. They put lots of stuff in your mind and u start believing it, and teaching ur sons the same thing.
But who do the rulles?? And what make this person,company,system,conspiration,society qualified or capable to tell us what to do ? With so many different cultures and way of life why should we follow a certain one? I think we should follow what is in our mind! Im not saying that a man should go killing someone else
on the streets because he feels like doing this! Its difficult to explain my point. And i dont have enought time for that. But why they would look weird if a
girld of 17 years old have a unusual and extend vision of life? Why this is not normal? I hate the limits the society put on people. I hate how they get to me.
U cant just run from them. I think the humans were suppose to be much more than this shit. And they have all they need to do this. But unfortunally they r all really afraid to be free. Because than they would be the only ones guilted for what they did or didnt. We r a bunch of cowards. And thats a pity.
I know ill never be free here. I know this is a big ilusion, but i also know that ill never be near this. And thats sad the things need to be this way.

Anonymous... why?

Oh well finally i have a blog! It doesnt really matter if u know me or not. Im not showing this blog for anyone i know anyway. Anyone i really know, its what i mean. Im just someone, maybe not even this... that likes to write. This is first of all for me. I feel much better when im writing things, anything! So i can read later and make the time pass faster. Im in work now and its quite boring sometimes. And i feel like writing sometimes but its kind of weird if i do this on a paper. People would wonder what is that about and bla bla bla
Sometimes i wish to know fuckin japanese so nobody that i dont want to would read what i write. So what? Im sure thats a part of you that u dont feel like showing for anyone u know
Life is like this, people are like this... people are strange when u r stranger, arent they?
That dont really explain ''anonymous why'' but that doesnt matter
i dont need to explain myself... im not the kind that writes what people want. Im not!